yay.cant believe it, got jayz new album liao hahaha yeah couldnt stand the itch la...
:D thanks ck, i owe u one, haha after i ve memorise the songs i like and carbon copied the lyrics into my slow lousy brain, i ll return u haha. anyway u said no need to return u ripped off the entire thing into ur comp ritez haha.
hahas, also tanks for eating wif me the other day after pw lahz haha pai seh lah, nearly pang sai you hahaha :D tanx lots.

listening to jie4 kou3 (excuse) song number 4... damn nice.
the first time i heard it was when i saw the mv on mtv...
it sort of had an impact on me like some other mvs do, but its very extremely rare, and i hadnt felt that sort of impact for a long, long time...
the mv was quite simple, the concept was maybe overused, even
the story was mainly abt a couple(jay and this european girl) who had broken up,and there he was, playing his electric guitar downstairs her house, trying to conivince her to frogive him...
it wasnt the 'romantic' stuff or wadtever, in fact the idea was so stereotyped that i sort of was sick of it...
but it was someting in the girls eyes, her disposition...the way she walked around her kitchen, opened the window,saw him there,gently closed back the window...

i guess some things cant be changed. sometings are just not meant to be.
so chances, once lost, cant be found again....

maybe you ve already given up hope in me
maybe its very hard for you to turn back
i know i missed the chance
please give me a reason why you dont love me
even if i dont understand
can you forgive me
please dont make breaking up your request
i know insisting on leaving
is the excuse for your being hurt
please turn back
i will walk with you to the end...


if u want to go, please remember me.
if u feel sad, please forget me.

if you had been betrayed before
if you had been deeply hurt before
would you be able to forgive that someone?
would you be able to trust that someone ever agaiN?
would you find the courage/foolishness to love the person again?
do you believe in second chances?

sometimes trust can only be given once
sometimes theres only one try in life
once lost
it can never be found again...

ok, im getting paranoid over that song. haha, been a long time since i heard a song/seen a mv that made me think so much...my brain was perpetually flooded with emotions, thoughts...
:) its a nice feeling. i like the song...if i would be attached in future and if brEAk up were the only outcome, i d like the theme song of my love story to be this song...

haha. okay, emm update of my boring grey life...
well, stupid maths test finally over. i m glad to say i ll be able to pass at least, according to my intuition la,that is, which is extremely inaccurate when it comes to stuff like maths >_<
i rmrb got one question i drew //ola instead of hyper bola! wait, opps its the opposite...
oh well. haha,heck la, more to come...
cant help it, the song is ringing in my head...

oh. today later afternoon supposed to go sajc to support sher...but im been officially grounded...sort of half by myself and half by my parents...after my mom talked to me, we bith met a consensus that i ve spent too much time doing stuff thats not academic related and after getting all those cca points and cip hours, whats most important is still my studies, which have not been very stable...so i ll go out less often during weekends and try to utilise weekends to the fullest...

JIA YOU SHER!!!!!! GO GIRL AND WIN THE BIGGGGIE PRRRIZEEEE YOU CAN DO IT !!!!!!!!
haha, well feel bad abt not being there to catcall and give my support...at least i ll try to pass ck flowers to pass to her later...hmmm what to write on the card? tee hee...l ll rite, wish i could be there! but sunflowers arent too bad either ritez haha :D
someone told me, my smile, my genuine smile, is like sunshine.
somewhat, my personality is like a sunflower...i follow the sun wherever it goess...there will be sad times when the sky is dark, but i ll always be the bright cheery sunflower...
when will i find my sun?
hahas. an interesting thought.

why do i feel like im styll not content wif life despite being so lucky, so fortunate?
i dont know...oh wells.
shen zai fu zhong bu zhi fu....

every year i try very hard to forget my birthday, i try very very hard...when i almost succeed, theres always someone there to remind me...i dunno, i guess to me birthday is not something imptnt...unless the person who celebrates it wif me, or pple who wish me happy bday or gif me prezzies really mean a lot to me...birthday is not about greta presents...its about being together with pple u care abt, to pass another milestone in your life....
:) i am 16 going on 17....

i m keeping my hair until next week...i guess i like the feeling of keeping my hair till my 17 birthday :) its a nice feeling... but i d like to cut it after that, cos i dont want to keep...
im not like those other girls who keep long hair, pretty and all...the feeling is really different...for me, long hair has always been a sort of like, but i never tot of actually keeping it, my keeping short hair is a sort of resistance...because im not like those other girls.... would you understand?...

dunno what was wrong wif me this thurs, i actually dreaded going to school...so i begged wif my mom not to go to school...she was absolutely shocked/angry/whatever cos i had never ever displayed such childish/unreasonable/weird/whatever behaviour all 10 years of my schooling life...
she told me better go see doctor if i stay at home cos i told her my throat felt weird...
lucky i listened to her, turned out to be throat infection...
when i fall sick its always those people who are the first to ask, the first to show their concern...
ck, sida,etc...
tanks pple. :) juz want to say dat does smses really mean a lot to me :)

feeling a little sad. not for any particular reason.
dont worry, im a happy sunflower, whatever the weather, wherever the sun is, rmbr?
its just a sort of feeling i have sometimes...sadness is a familar part of me ...

if you want to go, please remember me...
if you feel sad, please forget me...