There are things about human relationships that are beyond what you could/can imagine-

Since I was young, I had always been looking forward to the day I become an adult-

the day I gain the autonomy and freedom that is truly deserving of myself, as a grown human being.

The day the dynamics between us would change; that I would become elder, more becoming,

that I would be the one caring for, instead of being taken cared of-

But the actual day never came-

In fact, realisation dawned upon me that however old, however 'adult',

I will always be a child in their eyes.

in that way, 

though I care for them, 

things could never be the same. 

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My dream has always been to go to the airport with nothing but a small packpack of clothes and my passport, to book the cheapest next flight,

and just go wherever it takes me.

crazy it sounds, I know,

but I still think about it sometimes. 

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Sorry for being thoughtless-

I know you care for me,

you worry,

and it's all good cause;

Sometimes I wonder if you're overwhelmed with frustration,

at how little care I have for conventions, and what is the norm;

and if you think I am over-daring, and too bold for my own good;

(yet) still I dream about doing those wild, daring, bold, spontaneous things.

because we are only young once, right?