這個過份認真的人生　懷念曾經多天真
習慣了分分合合
每次唱生日快樂　舊願望還未發生
又得想幾個新的

回憶只剩下局部
就算再和你倒帶人生　能是安撫的
那時環遊世界的夢也不再做了
只要依靠著

幸福是個秘密　享受卻不知情
誰夜裏重播的舊黑白片　想起是我甚麼人生箴言
我都感激　已經很隨心　已經很隨心

那天加班，有些疲累，

坐上计程车，车一开，

电台就开始播这首歌，

忍不住，就静静地跟着唱。

记得那时第一次听到这首歌，莫名的感动。

歌词也好，曲子也好，都是无比震撼。

有些人觉得这是很心碎伤心的歌-

可是我不那么觉得。

能算是，

一点失望，

一点快乐，

一点无奈，

一点知足，

一点随心，

一点平淡。

其实，这不就是人生？

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"time is like cleavage-

if you squeeze it, you have more."

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才星期三而已。。。。

为什么一直有像是星期四的感觉？

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wants and needs.

sometimes, things are simple.

you know what you want/need.

Most times in life, it's about working to achieve what you want/need.

A decent job, more money to buy things, bags, clothes, cars, shoes, cameras, good food, to be able to travel/go on vacation,; the list of things go on and on. It's all a matter of how much effort/time it takes to achieve these things, whether attainment is possible, and if not possible, whether one is able to deal with not having these things in one's live (i.e. dealing with disappointment). Pretty simple and clear cut, it seems.

And at the same time, things are complicated.

Sometimes what you want/need involves other people, and people aren't you, so they don't know what you want/need, and so you have to tell them or they have to try to find out.

Sometimes it may seem unreasonable to hope/expect people to know what you want/need, but telling them directly loses the original meaning of the action/want. Telling a friend to comfort you when you are down, a lover to hold you when you need to be held, or a boss to give you encouragement when you are stressed; even if you are eventually comforted, held and encouraged, all these lose their meaning because to be given something only when asked for it loses the original hope for initiative and thoughtfulness underlying the action/gift.

Considering this, if you don't want to tell people directly what you want/need, then of course you may have to consider to give them time to find out, during which, you should/need to patiently wait in the meantime. Lastly there also lies the possibility that other people don't want to give you what you want, or are simply unable to.

this is the reason why (I find) social/communal living is sometimes difficult.