Sometimes, before the eve of something really big, or something I have been anticipating for a long, long time, I suddenly get a case of cold feet.
I have second thoughts and start to feel fidgety and worried, and want to pull out.
For no particular reason really, because these are things that I am very certain of, things that I care a lot about, things that make a different to me/my life. Yet- still, I get this horrible feeling creeping from behind me, urging me
‘don’t go- don’t do it!’
Things like that.
It’s not that I have little faith in myself or other people/things-
It’s the fear that things wouldn’t turn out as fantastic as you anticipated/hoped so hard for them to be-
After all loads of things in life are unexpected, and people can be mercurial, fickle creatures, myself included.
It makes me scared.
Scared so bad I want to escape before anything has even started.
Why? These illogical thoughts plague me and I cannot explain why.
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