for what must have seemed like the longest time, I thought I was feeling a feeling that was close to love. Nothing I had ever experienced before could parallel it, and I couldn't quite put my finger on it. That was in 2008, we had already met, we had already known each other,

but somehow, it was only then that i started to like you.

loads of happiness

loads of excitement

loads of disappointment

loads of hurt and sadness

and then,

even then,

still then,

2 years on, people and came and went in my life,

passing attractions, occasional distractions,

but i still couldn't quite forget you-

you were the only person in my mind-

even though I was never for you.

finally, somehow, in 2011,

seeing you happy with someone else,

and feeling this sense of calm in my heart,

it was as if things took a change,

my mindset took a change;

it was like I became free-

then,

almost, as if by magic,

you came.

and,

here you are.

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it would have never worked out because you never opened up.

because i never opened up (not to you anyway)

but you never hurt me,

you were only a passing distraction,

as i knew/know i was to you in the same way.