there are just those people in your life, who have made you feel like nobody else has (not necessarily in a good way), whom you have (perhaps foolishly) allowed them to be there in your most vulnerable times, who you just have to meet in your most unglam, your most broken down, your most caught-off-guard, your worst moments.

multiple times it has happened to me, and all i could/can do is wallow in the feeling of 'suay-ness' that envelopes me whole, and simply resign to my fate of always meeting that person in my worst moments.

when it happens all you can do is look up. And/because when your eyes meet, whatever you do, however you react, it is all totally out of your control because your body has gone on horror-autopilot. Fight or flight as they often say, but usually you 'freeze' first.

not a fantastic way to spend a tuesday.

just... a little awful.