Had a bit of a whirlwind weekend.

i'm very tired,

a little bit sleepy,

and would really like it very much if-

well, never mind,

it's not important.

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spending much too much money outside,

need to be more frugal.

it's not that im earning too little, or feeling very misery (in fact i seldom am) but some kinds of expenditure is just not necessary- things like living lavishly, buying unnecessary things, eating opulent dinners too often;

these things are all not important.

i need to keep sight of the goal in mind,

and save for it.

and i have to change my mindset now.

if someone offers to buy (the meal);

i will not (stubbornly) decline, nor (in a very naive manner) offer to go dutch.

Money is not something that i have too much of, sadly.

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i cannot deny i (sometimes) like sleeping (more than i need) because it's somewhat similar to the feeling of being held and loved, which is (obviously) very nice.

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genuinely perplexed.

sometimes i wish brains/people could work like etch-a-sketch, so i'd be able to see/understand everything much more clearly.

we were at I's house, trying to talk our way to stay up through the night (though eventually we all failed miserably, all save for me because i'm a light sleeper and GMW's snoring was like the SSO), when CT was discussing some aspects about how males and females interact.

I told him the way i determine if a guy is romantically interested in a girl is if let's say he buys the girl a meal, what his reaction is when the girl offers to pay him back. In my humble opinion, if he's interested, he would decline that the girl pay him back, and conversely, if he just accepts the money, that's a clear indicator it's just a platonic relationship.

but CT told me something, which totally blew me off-

Assuming he is romantically interested in the girl, it would still depend. He said that if the girl offered to pay, he would accept, but if the girl didn't offer to pay, he would just forget about it and take it that he treated the girl.

isn't there no consistency in his/the actions at all?

if you want to go dutch, go dutch from the start,

if you want to buy the meal, then don't accept to go dutch later.

it's just... not consistent.

In my humble opinion, in the ideal situation the guy would decline to go dutch, and suggest the girl treat him back in the future.

1. it makes him look generous

2. in a way he gets his money 'back' (assuming he is not petty about the exact amount)

3. it gives him a chance to eat/meet with with the girl again (which is a good thing assuming he is interested in her anyway)

(but) why do so many guys fail to adopt this strategy?

but if most guys really do think like CT, then,

goodness?

i suppose to make things more advantageous for myself if a guy buys dinner then i should just keep mum and totally bear no mention of wanting to go Dutch?

But i guess i'm just not the kind of girl to want free meals.

i really don't know what/how guys are thinking.