the thing about co-existing with other people in this planet is that sometimes i find it difficult to deal with my expectations of other human beings. The first thing is promises. These can be small or big, important or not, in the present or in the future-

but whenever i make a promise i really try within the best of my ability to fulfill it

(otherwise this immense sense of guilt would overcome me),

and to me what is more important actually,

is that when i made the promise,

the intent with which i made the promise,

it was real.

i had ever intention of fulfilling that promise, and to me, it was real, it was important, it was present, it was relevant, in every small or insignificant way others might have brushed it off.

to put things crudely i guess often i take things/people too seriously and assume that they treat/view things the same way as i do, and thus get crushed completely when some promises are not fulfilled or some words once said are taken back or simply brushed off as unimportant.

Initially it would be a sense of small disappointment that i could just push aside rather easily, but if encountered repeatedly with the same person, it just leads to this sense of expectation that the person would fail to fulfill his/her promises and not meet your expectations time and time again, so in the end some times i don't even take people seriously, when they say things,

because how would you know when people mean what they say

(that they would really do it), and how do you know when they don't?

a promise is a promise, however small-

that's how it is to me anyway.