playing on my mp3.

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long hair.

i know it's nice and long and all, and it's probably the only thing for which i get compliments all the time (i'm just saying this as-a-matter-of-factly- i don't even think it's nice? what is wrong with people, it's just protein growing on your head-) but it's really taking too long to dry and being a hassle and pain in the ass (figuratively)

i haven't been keeping it long-

i just, haven't been doing anything with it/didn't know what to do with it.

then time passed, it grew, and now it's 'long enough to cover your boobs' (in HC's words)

some days i'm just tempted to go back to this,

but now i know better, it takes more than 3 months for it to grow back (what the naive me in the past used to think, pah), and in the meantime i have to get re-accustomed to the feeling of the rain falling on my scalp (which is quite nice actually), the bus air-conditioning blowing directly on my head, people giving weird stares, blah blah.

i have to do something, asap.

before it takes 4 hours for my hair to dry.

(on hindsight, i could buy a hairdryer.)

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met up with guiming yesterday at veganburg- it was pretty delicious i suspect, but considering my sense of smell and taste wasn't really functioning normally (mighty thanks to this persistent flu+cough), i couldn't know for sure. Should head there again when my senses are functioning normally, just to do the joint justice. It's a pretty trendy place, but a tad expensive for burgers.

The main point of meeting up was the company though-

it was kind of a strange kind of familiarity that hit me when we met- it's like we have this comfortable dynamic- because we've done so much sai kang together? 2 years of rag and 2 years of sets and all the shit and nonsense and tough times that we had to pull through- pulling all nighters, rushing all the structures, brainstorming the mechanisms, having metal bits fly into our eyes when we used the irritating metal grinder, blah blah blah.

talking to guiming was surprisingly liberating/relaxing-

i could finally talk openly about all the things that had been on the back of my mind,

come clean with whatever issues i had unresolved-

not that it solved any problem(s), but just being about to talk about things is a first step, i suppose.

It's like we have a comfortable dynamic, because the friendship is platonic.

And a platonic friendship between a man and a woman can only ever happen if neither one is sexually attracted to the other-

(true, no?)

it doesn't come easy,

but once in a while, you get lucky, i guess.

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sometimes people send mixed signals and you wonder,

'what is it that they want?'

I've surpassed that stage-

now i don't even bother.

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i know the standard thinking is that when you're sick, you should stay home and rest, sleep more blah blah and all.

i'm a bit peculiar-

i like to do the opposite.

I hate missing out on things, so i'd pack a full day worth of meetups/activities with people and just wear myself down.

it's like how i eat ice cream on rainy days. (is it strange? frmph.)

it's a bit crazy,

but that's just me, i guess.