some numbers you always remember,

some people you never forget.

that's fine really-

there's no point forcing yourself to remember something,

and no way you could will yourself to remember.

it's fine really,

just that...

it kind of annoys me/angers/irks me a little-

how can people be so confident that they're not forgotten?

how, how can you be so confident/so full of yourself/so...

it's just horrible.

and also,

it' makes me a little sad that i actually do remember.

without anyone else reminding, without any external kind of prompting,

that i do remember.

a little sad that i couldn't be just a bit better to myself by forgetting-

it's one of those things that just happen and you (secretly) hate yourself for remembering it always but things are just that way and there's no way you could change or turn things back.

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the best thing that happened yesterday was when i was queuing for egg fried rice at some random stall in golden shoe, someone tapped me on the shoulder and when i turned around it was Q!!!! i was like, so happy so see her i could have eaten 3 plates of fried rice (it was not nice at all, not worth the queue).

and then she proceeded to say she wanted to introduce her colleagues to me (which to me was irrelevant) but all her colleagues were shy and had run off at the sight of me (geez, do i look like a monster? =/) and we had a nice chat before she went to buy drinks and i continued queuing.

then when i sat back down she came over and plomped an avocado milkshake on the table and said

'my treat, for you!'

it's like she knows (me) best.

like no one else would, like no one else could (ever),

she knows me better than i know myself.