the inevitable/unfathomable happened.

i don't know what to say besides i really studied damn hard this semester? and that i'm pretty disappointed with my standing and the results. i think my dad will pretty much flip when he knows the results.

now i have to consider a few options to see if things can be salvaged,

or just to accept things are they are...

oh well.

just continue job searching.

(secretly i prayed desperately to God to say that if he could help me i would be a devout follower for the rest of my life but seems like either he doesnt exist, doesnt want to help, or i am beyond assistance. in any case this is my last strand of belief in a non-human external omnipotent omnipresent being)

maybe if i prayed at the temple i would have had better luck.