it's hard to be cold but the best is to keep a distance.

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everything starts from learning how to use the eraser.

everything you draw, big or small, neat or messy, important or mundane,

stupid or clever, thick or thin, detailed or rough,

gone.

when i realised how wonderful the eraser was,

i found how difficult it was to use it.

but i think im getting used to it.

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how do you answer 1 or 2 word replies?

like 'haha', or 'ic' or 'oh' or 'okay' or 'oh well' or 'i guess'

followed by no reply.

the worst is

'HEHE'.

what is HEHE supposed to mean?

are you even supposed to answer?

are you supposed to change the topic?

close the conversation box? find something smart to say?

22 years of living [almost] has not trained me well in the pragmatics department.

no, not at all. i still find myself getting confused, somewhat flustered, sometimes frustrated.

what do people mean?

what do they really want?

what are they trying to say?

these things are so tacky.

smileys are the worst.

like '=)', or ':)' '=D'. you know, there are a wide variety.

the winking one is the worst.

and the senseless, brainless, sometimes purpose-less emoticons.

i dont know how many times i've see a smiley on msn or an sms and groaned[both inwardly and literally] at it and racked my brains at how to, and if i should reply. like what the hell, if the conversation is over, just say so. if you want to go toilet, go. if you want to eat lunch, go. if you don't want to talk to me already, SAY SO. what does ':)' to a reply mean?

i only do it when i'm distracted or seriously dont know what to say

or

when im really smiling but after that i usually say something else

so people know im not just giving a random reply.

do people have a problem initiating conversations?

or ending them?

does it mean if you start an sms,

it should end with you,

or, to be fair,

it should be the other person?

what if the person doesn't reply?

what if the person sounds damn aloof?

what if the person sounds disinterested?

what if the reply is like 'haha, and then blah blah'

[i hate this the most]

i hate it when someone sounds aloof, or there's something indirect

hate it hate it hate it hate it.

why can't people be honest with what they think?

like if they hate someone's guts just mean it.

or if they think the dress you're wearing is shit

or if it's bloody hot they dont want to go out with you

or if they dont even want to continue the conversation

if we could talk face to face maybe i'd slap you or just call you 'wanker' like how effy calls tony in 'skins' or say 'how lovely' when i really mean 'what the fucking hell' like how cassie does it.

then again maybe not,

maybe not.

sigh.

is it really not possible to have a substantial conversation online?

then i guess it's way too bad, because some people can't even bring themselves to talk to each other face to face.

forget about talking,

altogether.

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gui ming wayne got a rabbit.

as if he's not poor enough

[you're wrong only his father is rich]

now his room will definitely smell like shit.

i love animals,

but the room will smell like shit.

haha, cool shit.