i just wrote a long post but i think it's kind of crap, so i saved it as a draft instead.
its basically about what i did the past few days, and what i ll be doing in the next few days, but that's really boring since im not like miley cyrus [gross] or like santa claus [it means i have a real holiday since my peak period is over] or something, and i have a boring life, so i ll not talk about it.

you know, it's like one of those half-assed stories that you wrote when you were young and naive, with hard-to-relate protagonists, hardly-interesting storylines and cheesy dialogue. it's meant to be touching and classic really, but you know better, and thus it 'fetus-dies-womb-inside'.
or those like poems are you wrote in your spare time spacing out on long bus rides that were really meant for somebody you liked but you never got to giving it to the person since the thought of being rejected due to the mediocricity of the poem is much to painful to bear.

okay maybe not quite so bad, since i dont write poems, except haikus when the teachers in secondary school forced us to, and in kindergarten i think, except i went to childcare not kindergarten, and i basically failed all my spelling tests in childcare because i have absolutely no memory of studying whatsoever during my childhood. ah, the days.
except maybe i studied for chinese i think, because chen laoshi was my mom.
alas, i wonder how my mother tolerated me.


in plain words, i caroled yesterday [actually yesterday yesterday since its 4 am already] and yesterday yesterday [yesterday yesterday yesterday actually, same as above] with eusoff choir, and then i went to wenhao's house for the kendo boxing day dinner, and i ll be seeing the gang later today, and maybe going to a sale before that, but i dont think my wallet can take it, though i have been rather kind with it these few weeks.

at home.
not doing much.

i like it,
the feeling of doing absolutely nothing at home.
it's wonderful.

or the feeling of vegetating with my sister on the couch while we surf through the countless [countable actually, but a sizeable amount regardless] teevee channels, and me OSing brainless lines and dubbing thoughts for the protagonists in lame taiwanese or crumpy korean dramas.

it's quite random, but during lunchtime today [yesterday actually, reason same as above] i went with wz to buy lunch and my dad wanted to eat prawn noodles but they were out so i kind of panicked but wz brought her phone [smart fella] so we called him and he said he wanted roast meat noodles but they were out so we called him again and he said bak kut mee and i said if they're out we just buy chicken rice [pft] but when we reached there they were really out! so we called him again and he just kind of resigned to fate like us, and said ok, chicken rice.

on hindsight i shouldnt have eaten charsiew noodles. 1/2 the noodles were untouched. its gross man, like not nice to eat, and the auntie is disgusting, cheap people money; i didnt bother to argue with her cause she just said, 3 dollar ah, then before i could reply she started making the noodles already -_____- when the sighboard said the standard is 2 dollars. please la, so much noodles, even if i worked at a construction site i wouldn't eat so much la, thanks. wasting food and harming our environment. tsk tsk. not to mention cheating money. just that my head was groggy from all the sleeping on and off i didnt want to argue with her only. whatever la.

talked to nick and wenhao abt some stuff. we ll be having a meeting sunday. sigh.
there goes family day.
though i dont think dad planned anything it ll annoy him that i have to go out on sunday i bet.
he just doesnt like it, lah.

it's so hard to get a full comm meeting man. like painful. go overseas, then come back, then some people go off. some people just go mia or claim they have 'appointments'.... you have an appointment with your sister ah, oh is it. ya, today actually i had an appointment with my dog to walk it but i totally just blew it off just to meet you loh, that's how important it is.
ya, my mouth is dripping with acid, but things are turning out exactly like i imagined. hard to pretend that things are bright and sunny and hard to work with people who mia man. and its hard not be sarcastic.
all this is totally just like confirming my initial bias or gut feeling i had about some people, though i will refrain to elaborate about who or what.

this just teaches me to trust my gut more in future,
since it seems to be amazingly accurate
when it comes to judging people.

it's more like judging/guessing what their behaviour will be like. sigh.
im not in any position to judge anyone of course.


okay.

J is going off soon and i might send him off at the airport i think, but his flight is at 4am, so i ll have to spend the night at the airport to do it if i want to and monday is training day though its at night but i ll see how. he's seeing vijay liew on the 3rd though. i guess i might go kay poh and extra and be a nuisance at their lunch date, but i think there might be something on on that day. cant seem to remember.

he said i can visit him but i dont have that much money eh.
i think even if i sold off my knee, which is quite smart actually, since i usually say 'aiyoh i use my knee cap to think also i know it's impossible' i wouldn't have enough money for half the ticket [but whats the point of getting half a ticket anyway? can half of my body fly there? which half would be better i wonder] and i wonder if they even need kneecaps or buy kneecaps in the black market anyway so i think i ll just drop the thought.

and i want to go to japan.
the stupid allan alex sim jio and now i think he might be applying for some work or study thing instead and also ah jin wanted to go but with ah jin, you never know because i have a feeling its all talk no action because he wants to go to south africa and solo in indonesia as well but im quite sure he doesnt have that much money or time either so regardless i ll go anyway even if qiuping doesnt want to go somehow someway i ll have to go there. I HAVE TO GO.
like a real holiday in japan. sigh.


sale.
post christmas and pre new year sale.
i hate it when there's a huge red signboard with white bold printed words 'SALE' like all over it.
and like people swarming the store. im half wanting to go in and see if the sale is really that fantastic and half dreading the crowd and women snatching clothes and stuff all over the floor and the awful feeling of not seeing anything that caught your eye really when everything you know is rather cheap actually. cognitive dissonance.


okay im going to sleep already,

goodnight world.