i'm like incredibly excited, zapped, sad, frustrated,confused and annoyed at the same time.

excited cause my coloursplash flash, supre anchor print tunic and lomo fisheye traveller came,
zapped cause i'm seriously too deep into this emo-sleep-too-much-skip-class-emo thing,
sad cause i can't seem to do anything properly nowadays and goodness knows why,
frustrated cause i was a bad group mate and kind of screwed the pl2132 project,
confused because i know generally i am responsible and reliable,
annoyed because i've obviously shown that i'm not.

oh did i mention?


and i'm spending too much money.
like WAY too much money.

like my mother-should-handle-my-wallet-posbatmcard-ibankdevice-and-my-account spending too much money.

and sometimes i feel like there are so many things in life and i can't control them and how they work out and it's like when i do this it seems sad to me but at the same time it's the only thing i can control.
and like i have this insatiable hunger; like no matter how many things i buy, how much i sleep, how much food i eat, the rest is not getting to me, the clothes/things/cameras are not making me happy, the food seems tasteless and meaningless to me.




on the other hand,
i keep thinking if i should sell the lomography fisheye traveller. it's pretty and all but the idea of getting a holga/diana F+ is like really seducing me. i can hear the whisper from the back of my ear teasing me. like, 'oh, fredflare has 25% off storewide for this week, BUY ME, BUY ME!'

let's try to work this out rationally so i can decide which camera to part with and which to buy.

camera: goldenhalf
pros: can take twice as many photos as a normal lomo cam.
compatible with coloursplash flash check.
also, i give 5/5 for coolness/pretty factor.
cons: can't do vignetting,
can't do multiple exposures, blah.

camera: splitcam
pros: multiple exposures check,
split format top/down check
cons: not compatible with external flash,
kind of cumbersome to use, i keep forgetting to open the lens shutter, crap.
and using it kind of makes me feel like a primary school student. unglam, check.

camera: lomo fisheye traveller
pros: fisheye effect check
compatible with coloursplash flash check
like 4.5/5 for cool exterior. a totally must have on a trip.
cons: can't do vignetting,
can't do multiple exposures.

camera: diana f+
pros: vignetting check
multiple exposures check
compatibility with colorsplash flash check
wonderful pinhole ability check
wide angle panorama ability check
and it's a diana. that alone is cool man.
cons: big pain in the arse, 120 format film. the adaptor for 35mm costs a solid 50USD, more expensive than my lomo traveller even =_______=

camera: holga basic
pros: vignetting check
multiple exposures check
compatibility with coloursplash flash check.
and it's a holga! how cool is that.
can do all kinds of weird things, e.g panorama adaptor, fisheye adaptor, 135mm adaptor, polaroid adaptor [*gulp*], ecetera.
cons: hmmm, i can't think of any, how bad is that. oh.
uses 120 format film, CRAP. biggest pain in the arse. of course i could purchase and adaptor but that would cost extra money which im not sure is a worthwhile investment.


okay, looks like i came to a conclusion already.

i think i'll lie low and hunt for a holga second-hand.