i know this should be the least of my worries,




in the past year,
many things have changed.
i became jaded,
i took up more things,
i neglected my studies,
i had problems with people,
i also spent a lot of money buying a lot of cameras, clothes, food and goodness knows what else.
more money than the amount i've spent in my entire childhood.
more clothes than i've bought in one entire year during my adolescence.
more cameras than i would have ever expected my dad to ever want to purchase from cnet.com.


i need a job.
seriously.

less time = more time spent on meaningful things.
maybe it wouldn't mean that to you, or that it doesn't make sense,
but it does. to me.
if there's less time left, i'd spend it doing things that really mattered,
and with people who really mattered.

i'm going to start searching, NOW.

and also studying.



it's never too late,
and always, never lose hope.

in some ways,

i'm hopeless, aren't i?

*smirk*