it's days like these that make me want to be a shirt hanging on the clothesline.

i was smile contentedly to myself, bask quietly in the sun's warm rays, my sleeves flapping, sometimes, in the occasional wind, as if to embrace myself, to wrap around myself, to protect myself. but what is there to shield from? the warm gentle sun? he bears no harm for he is merely an old kind soul, yearning for love.




it's hot, itchy, irritating,
but nice.
oh, so, nice :)

i realise i haven't had any real blog posts lately, about my life or me for that matter, except the occasional ramblings and whining about the things i want to buy, my current shopping obsessions ecetera. and i just realised my powershot g5 kind of fixed itself while i shut it in the camera bag and put it in the 'cold palace' for a year or so. i so miss the solid feeling of gripping it.
toy cameras are cute, but nothing beats the feeling of having a solid g5 in your hands.
solid, firm, strong, sturdy, dependable, impressive, manly, whatever.
it's like the best thing ever.

minus the hassle of a camera stand, tripod, extra lenses and flash. i so do not like the extra maintenance. not worth the effort.
so it's quietly sitting next to me, quite pleased with itself i believe [i'm so glad you're back :) i missed you!] charging to ready itself for another outdoor adventure with careless me :P

i think i ll just get the film for the split cam, ikimono 110 and polaroid and play around till i'm bored. i could always wait for the next uo spree, which is godknowswhen, but that's okay, since my g5 is next to me, yay.


i'm so glad the week is over, cause the past two weeks have been hell, and i can't believe it's all finally behind me and i can finally enjoy the weekend and a short rest, and finally try to catch up with all the readings and assignments.

i didnt sleep at all yesterday, so my eyelids are a tad heavy now, but im feeling unlethargic, maybe because i slept almost all of yesterday away, minus the sportsclub retification and AGM, and then training and then choir, and then rushing pl2132 stimuli and then our own comm meeting and then lunch, and then now.
which is, not too bad i guess?
i guess if you eat too much at one go you feel a loss of appetite afterwards. like bleah feeling even when you see like delectable food. just like how im not that sleepy with my bed behind me even.

i have to write 3 letters to kitt senpai [which i kind of replied but i think should write a better reply], to gf [who is cycling in sweden :)] and to wei, [who is having fun cooking in UCSB.]
i think i'll snail mail the latter. im wondering if i should add something extra but i dont have an idea yet and i kind of overspent so im watching my budget. if only i could minus my food budget, that would be wonderful.




i'm feeling a little tired now but i think i'm happy.
being busy and all. sometimes it seriously kills me, and for like instances, i stop and ponder to myself and ask why i take all this up and if the duties and responsibilities are killing the passion, and then i tell myself, that shouldn't be the way, and so i carry on.

sometimes,
like ex-taicho used to say,
'too bad, that's life.'

and the best ever reply,

'sometimes, strong is not what you are,
but what you become.'