mr godspeed and i were talking about some of the worries of leg injuries, and of kendo, and other things and such. and of course, omedeto, godspeed san, on your first fyp draft.
and then we talked about something, and it lead to me saying [it always seems like im the one talking, eh?] something about reading people through their eyes...

and this is an old entry i dug out....:
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' The next stage in the development of Theory of Mind is understanding the language of the eyes. The old saying, ' Eyes are windows to the soul' is not far from the truth. When someone stares directly into your eyes, your heart rate increases as does the electrical activity in your brain. The effect of direct eye contact is so intense that we normally only stare directly at a person who is staring back at us in one of the two situations; either when we re incredibly angry or when we re in love. As shakespeare said in love's labour's lost, 'A lover's eyes will gaze an eagle blind'.

we are often acutely aware when someone is looking at us. Imagine that you are in a cafe having coffee on your own, when you suddenly feel strange. You look up quickly, and sure enough, someone is staring at you, but as soon as you look at them, they turn away and usually both of you are left feeling uncomfortable.'

now that sounds familar. i couldnt help but give a secret chuckle while i was reading it.

'The evolutionary reason why you should take very good care to detect eye gaze is because when another animal is looking at you it can mean one of the three 'F's. Either that animal wants to fight you, feed on you, or mate with you.

urm. okayyy. haha. i guess i kind of knew this kind of thing all along.
anyway, i was just randomly thinking about this today.
what if we were totally uncivilised and mately for the pure sake of biological purposes like our primate relatives?
what would it be like?

i mean, it would be....
i rather not think about it
but then again, when you think back, theres always a hidden biological reasoning behind why you experience infatuation with some particular members of the opposite sex. its probably cause you think he ll be a good person to father your kids.

but this is just a hypothesis anyway.
the next time you look at me, i ll see if i have the courage to look back.



because it probably means something.

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what WAS i thinking?
i wonder.

well, that explains why i glare at people i dont like.
funny how i' ve never been able to hold the gaze of people i ve liked.
maybe i ve never liked them enough.

i wonder.



ok, so maybe it doesnt skip a beat,
but it definitely goes faster.
funny how smiling makes you feel nervous.
or maybe its the other way around?