dreams will be dreams.
a thousand threads are running through my mind
it's no surprise i suffer from sleepless nights.

time is lonely
and summer's blinding
morning's been waiting all night

let no worries daunt you
let no distress haunt you
tonight

godspeed i travel
blinded by light



heaven's on fire.
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sunshine sent me a couple of great rockin' house pieces by hed kandi, and immediately, as expected, i got hooked.
its seriously addictive. i quickly switched to serious-foot-tapping-head-bobbing autopilot mode as the catchy beat came on...

i mean, i like chillout pieces, and i love lounge, but

i never knew i was a house-kind-of-person.
well.
now i do, i guess.

exams are 3 days away but im still enjoying myself in la-la-land.
BOLLOCKS, IT DOESNT EVEN FEEL LIKE THE EXAMS, DAMNIT!!!!!!!!!
*calm expression returns*
frmph.
well.
i m studying, but not enough, i should think.
not as much as i would like.

i want to do well, seriously.
and i ve been lucky [DAMN lucky, in fact, if i have to come clean] considering the fact that [yes i am going to repeat again] i-as-a-crazy-year-one-did-not-manage-to-bid-for-my-desired-exposure-modules-during-this-
sem-and-bid-for-3-2000-and-1-3000-module-yes-i-am-freaking-crazy.
and what.
im not bragging, but
i got
A- for my chinese paper. [WHAT THE HECK???/!! of course, thanks to plagiarism.]
B for my philo papers, 9/10 for grp presentation [this isnt that much of a big thing to fuss abt]
A for my psych 3000 module grp stuff, and a rather high grade for the individual test [which
i am not revealing incase if i do, i give you an impression that im a conceited-self-centred-biggot-bastard HAH]
11.5/15, and B for grp project for my film module [this one can be explained. we stayed in the comp lab from 6pm to 6 am to edit the film damnit. i just realised i use a lot of damnit-s in this post. frmph]

getting my sc2205 term paper tmr. im scared shittless. *jelly legs*
sigh/
wish me luck.

I NEED TO WAKE UP AND MUG FOR THE EXAMS LA DARN IT

but im so fidgety and impatient [trying to read those hopeless socio readings which should have been done n weeks ago] i must have tried n different positions sitting on that plastic chair [that is quite comfortable and good for posture actually, i realised]

im finally starting to enjoy shopping [for clothes] a little.
that would be a timely subtle move towards womanhood, i suppose.
considering all those unpleasant and time-wasting shopping trips in the past

imagine me, holding someone else's shopping bags, standing at the side, looking disinterested.

i still havent been able to enjoy the full force of unrestricted, spontaneous, at-liberty retail therapy. there's still always this nagging voice at the back of my head preventing me from buying unnecessary items, or necessary items that are above my self-set budget. not tjhat its bad, that is. i'd just like to be able to spend as much as i like for one day ...



i doubt that will ever realise.