its time i faced my demons.


i know i ve been avoiding this all the time;
trying to run away; trying to imagine its all imagination [ohtheirony]
but i know im screwed.

deep down inside. beneath the smiles and the sunny disposition.
im screwed.


i need to take time off people and sort out things myself.
judy was right when she said that if i did a piece each day it would help me resolve the unsettled/uneasy feelings inside... and what have i done? procrastinated.

i miss her so much.
i love the way she draws. there's just something about her deep, infused, colourful crayon smugdged pictures ['oh? im using old crayons so that when they finish i can buy new ones for the patients' ... dont you just love her?]
this warmth, this vibrance, this openess, this acceptance that i have long forgotten or lost altogether...

i need to come up with a resolution.
ok, a piece a week isnt too much, right? since i dont do much when i go back on weekends anyway [and shiet i need to start building up my portfolio for masters... pr else i ll just die... i cant just survive on replicas of beautiful print ads and comic/anime pics alone... need something with more substance]


starting from...


hajime!