im going to rant about mundane and unimportant things so if u have no time if u re a year two at njc like me awaiting your doom once this holiday ends you better scurry off to mugg the shit out of your little brain or else... sigh. im not responsible for anyones FFFF grades. or my own... i wish!

*sigh*

not bad. i think i ve grown stronger. but equally lousy at pacifiying people. i just seem to be at a loss of what to do when i see someones tears. which is why i never cry in front of people, cos i dun want to cause trouble for them... anyway im strong lohz :P its other pple who need to be pacified ha ha ha. okay... not funny..

things are good. im serious. its back to 5 pairs of slippers and 10 feet. laughing at how hopeless my sister can get when it comes to makeup. im not exactly a genius either, but she cant even tell whether to put foundation or blusher first. im having a had time telling her that the silent hardworking worker is no longer respected in this world.. packaging does matter.. which is rather sad... :( oh well.

thats why im sad/happy if someone tells me i am pretty. erm its a compliment i suppose. but i dun want someone to like me BECAUSE i am pretty. i dun want to like pple because they are good looking either... ha ha. so if i like a good looking person, i will try to dislike the person, then try to find any traits/inner qualities that can make me like the person... then i will allow myself to like the person

so complicated right. T_T oh well

i spend the rest of my time annoying my other sister, aka child labour.. XD ha ha. not like she does any chores or runs any errands for me loh. its just a nick. T_T i ve ironed more clothes and folded more clothes in one day than her entire lifetime... thats how lazy she is! and shes so skinny lah...

i AM NOT JEALOUS. slim is good. skinny is not. anyway, she has so much flab. but shes skinny. ironic. -_-

spent last night moving the stuff in sis room arnd. cos got new comp. not bad. its quite cool looking.

this is really quite mundane and insignificant. bleah. holidays suck. like you dun have pocket money. neither do u have proper slacking time. even when u slack, its with a tinge of guilt and bu shuang-ness cos u anticipate/dread the consequences once the holidays end and ur hmwk/exams are due... sad sad life. maybe i could be a housewife. quite dull and drab. but i can iron quite well. ha ha. :)

i dunno how my mom tolerates the way my dad orders her around.
i mean, hes handsome, and clever, and humourous, and with a stable income blah blah doesnt smoke doesnt drink alcohol, doesnt do drugs or cigarettes etc etc
but hes a mcp. really really bad one.. i dun think i could tolerate that... or maybe...

i realised its true. im rather sunny by nature. my ideal world would be everyone happy
then i would be happy
la la la... its like my vocabulary stopped at the age of 5. it consists of only
'happy' or
'sad'

if it really was the case, then boy, life would be a lot easier.
like.
i was really sad for the past few weeks :(
but things are ok now. so im happy :)



but i get the feeling that those people who have been trying to cheer me up the past few weeks while i was :( are now...
they need the cheering up...
but what can i do?...

i ll feel like an idiot if someone starts crying... this is bad. i have to formulate a plan.

anyway, want to thank those pple close to me who have been there for me when i was :( or some what :(...ashbenckqiuhan *hug* thanks for being there. cos it really made/makes a difference

tmr is mich and rx birthday! happy bdAY!!!

and thursday is... *drum roll*
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qiu han s birthday!!!!
*crowd claps and whistles*
a birthday song for you...

*due 9 june*

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to qiuhan~
happy birthdAY to YOU!!!

i know u re a comp dummy so u nvr ever go online. u said so urself. so u ll nvr get to read this. that doesnt matter :) just for you, cos u were the best thing that ever happened to me, in all my 4 years in cedar. :) cos u were/are always there..

okay.. i slack a bit, do a few quizzes then go start my mugging session. im behind time already.
jiayou year twos! you can do it~!