i was overcome with a weird surge of emotions last night. i just felt helplessly empty.
cold.
sad.
lonely.


im not sure if i was angry. i nearly snapped at ben yesterday. for sth so small. im so sorry...
ck played minesweeper with me. i won the first time round. unbelieveable. he won by a bit the second time round.

if i could i would but im still afraid of walking around the house at night im still afraid that one day i wake up and everything that is so dear to me just disappears right in front of my eyes im still afraid im still

the tears dont come cos im not sure if its sadness
its just a ripping feeling deep inside my heart that i cant quite...



dont let me down
lets keep on running
dont let me fall
look at me and say
say you wont forget me
say you ll be lonely

because i ll be



because its ...