yeah. goodbye pw. should be typing this with some mixture of contentment, relish, and whatever, ha ah but why do i actually feel a tinge of sadness?

yeah porbably because yes, despite the unebelieveable and incredible part of this, i did enjoy doing pw with my dearest nj066:D you rock man, u make my day!!!!
:) it was the bestest la.
all those good old sessions at kims house(mostly anyway)
like the time which i recall as the worlds ever most unproductive pw session meet up during national day when everyone of us was in a shitty mood and i had this really bad splitting headache and my brain felt not so good so all i could do was lie down and put my head under some cardboard boxes in kims study room to block out the horrible sun while i took two panadol pills consecutively

lolx.
den later these few days we did pw at ming juan, aaron and you zhis house. :) lolx like house viewing, the only hse never go is mine, cos too far for everyone. you zhi stay at woodlands, aaron at yewtee mj at bukit panjang and kimmy at clementi...goody goody for me...:(
hahaha but it was really fun esp the fillers between the time we are anxiously trying to brush up our presentattion and fabricate more minutes and do whatever crap analysis of whatever...we started talking cock for no reason den damn fun hahahhaa even mj also :)
den really weird aaron went a bit bonkers never seen him so funny before haha must be too many hours of pw...we all went a bit mad...:)

den so funny go aaron hse his room right next to the front door... hahaha and that hypothenuse theory lolx how to walk the short cut from the mrt to his hse lolx...
and we go yz hse so weird his mom damn freaky like whole time want to feed us or sth hahaha so many soft drinks and goodies and whatever lolx just keep pigging out like xiao...
mj hse very nice but very quiet haha a:) rmbr the times when we couldnt stop luffing cos she had to sacrifice to fake as the adopted baby and carry a milk bottle hahaha :)

:) i ll miss all this. not fabricating minutes, doing annotations, paging the gpf, doing analysis of survey questions...urgh and certainly not our stupid irresponsible st, mr lee pheng guan aka i am going to hack him, termed affectionately by ming juan lolx.sucks la he, yucks.

suddenly feel like i m at a loss cos like pw has been one of the main things in my life so far, now finished le, feel a wee bit empty inside...

oh let me bitch about some things first.
i was really sort of pissed when i realised that nj065 copied some of our ideas, cos like in the first place, our concepts of a talkshow are already so similar, and they got an advantage cos they could act it out before we could, cos we re nj066 and we re right after them.
i got angry at the part where they added in the website last min, which is like, so totally copy our website idea which we had ever since the start of commencement of our course of action...>_<>
must not let emotions get to me. but luckily the genre(pronounced john-re, as kimmy tot me hahaa i suck at this) was really different cos they were so informal but we were so formal and business like...

but even though i was pissed i made an attempt to give them moral support and smile thru the whole thing... and the least they could do was do the same for our presentation...but most of them had dose extremely bored i am so xian look on their faces and they didnt even attempt to hide it. damn infuriating. >_<

kim advised me not to bitch abt it but here i am. at least i let it out and not bitch behind their back right. oh well. its my fault too i suppose, we didnt patent any of the ideas or wat so anyone can erm duplicate or use them or wat...and i shuld be more erm, okay, erm less petty abt such stuff la...budden i just writting to let it off my chest, dun take it to heart, and i wun take things to heart also,after all its over liao...

sometimes, lifes like that. whenever sth liddat happens, i feel like i ve been too trusting and life decided to give me a bitter taste of betrayal. haha im taking this too seriously.

to lighten up things, our presentation rocked!
cos we rock.
NJ 066 you rockkkkkk :D

its the sort of group dynamics dat shuld get a 5/5 for our pw.:)
and to our dearest gpf aka our 6th member of nj066:
goodbye for now, but we ll see u again next year when u are found in the reference section of the library labelled 'model group project files' :D

i have a gigantic ego.:)

enuf of pw. hahas. wells. after that all time freaking high, i kept acting hyper, ops i was acting, i WAS hyper hahaha and energetic and stuff i went down to the all time low again...
the girls decided to go mich hse and chill budden i retreated into my hermit home:)
save money>_<>

talking about all the girls in our class being screwed up, someone said fan has an extremely weird and freaky temper. but i wonder why no one said the same for me...sometimes i act antisocial not on purpose but really cos i feel damn uncomfortable, like some social misfit, so if i dun fit in i dun see a point in staying arnd to try to fit in. afterall, the jigsaws been pieced together and i obviously dun belong to this picture so i ll go in search for my picture, where i belong....

or i can always go back into the box :) aka my very comfy sofa.

its not like i dun try and they dun try to let me fit, but it just doesnt fit, so no point right? quite waste of time. sometimes i envy those jigsaw pieces, like mich and thom, which seem to fit in just like anywhere into any picture...budden i realise im special too, haha even though specially normal, but i shuldnt wish to be like someone else.

i get the feeling lately im so tired that if i can think of anything to say or just dun fit or whatever i end up smiling to fake thru everything. and the smile is so well practised that it comes almost immediately and out on auto pilot mode. gooddy.

qiu han replied the msg i sent her yesterday lolx. like yest i ask if she free go eat dinner, today den she reply hahaha but i know shell always be there...at least shes a jigsaw piece that will always be close to me, not matter what picture we are in...
and talking to weiling on msn noww :) she wants to start a bloggie weeeee good idea hahaha
miss her so much...
dun be sad la girl...wei qu den msg me k... my fone on most of the time, i send u bor liao jokes to cheer u up hahaha i need cheering up too... sometimes i feel like a social misfit damn it

:) im a happy social misfit, nonetheless. most of the time anyway:)

la la la.

good luck to dose peeps who having chinese this frid.
tanks to the class girls for letting me try to fit into your picture even though i dun really belong tanks to ant and the guys for chumming and treating me like a part of you brothers when i wouldnt fit in with the girls serenie tanks for being there thom cheer up i wanna see a smile behind that gimli beard next time you jing tanks for the brownie tiong tiong tanks for talking to me when no one else realises thanks to my beloved nj066 for such an enjoyable pw work experience tanks to qiu han for the call which gave me the spunk and the confidence to shine today at the op tanks to weiling for chatting to me about all this after missing you for so long :)

so many so many the list goes on....


im still a happy jigsaw piece. :)