updating on request. seems like very long since i did a proper update, but the truth is i did two updates but got some advice, complains, blah blah, so bye bye updates.

listening to yummy shinhwa as i type. actually no big deal la their vocals, but they re really yummy, especially when they dance, like, OMG SO NICE THEY DAMN PRO
haha i like dong wan. anyway he doesnt look korean. :D dong wan rocks. but erics raps really damn good man, pei fu pei fu. :D i guess what i really like abt their music is their style, a bit of hip hop, some bits of pop, rock, some electric here and there, really nice.

after the freak incident, i ve tot quite a lot about my life. i guess its really up to me, amd lifes not as bad as i make it up to be. so im gonna make the best of it, yadayada etc, blah blah
and yeah that comm lunch crap was really quite nice :) even talking to cheryl too. i guess i will get used to it, i have lots of flaws too. and it does help that she likes that cd shop too.

okay, update on the things going on so far.
lets see, open day was somewhat a success, considering the fact that despite the counselors knowing nuts about dancing but still managing to influence me in such a way that my legs were itching to join in the mass dance...brings back the good old times...

wonder hows heng, my old dance partner and benchmate. lolx. aka hui huis squeeze.
haiz. dunno how they two now... even though there wasnt really anything in the first place...but i always felt they made a cute couple...damn! :(

back to open day. quite fun la, sitting at the booth kiao ka ing while the choir sang. the first time i watched the choir as a spectator. co0l. and stupid ck kept annoying me and knocking my head, as if i not short or stupid enuf. sher came:D hahaha felt so good, nvr see her for so long...:) mssed her.
den when ck left hs came lolx, as if they like switched slots or sth. haha.
and as if ck haden annoy me enuf, stupid hs continued irritating me in the same way. URGHHH
hua cheng also came back.lolx. he sat and stoned at the booth also, den we kept complaining how each other were slacking and not bothering to tend to the interested pple

yawn.

oh okay, nothing much to say so i ll digress
say this really yummy looking guy on the bus the other day, and he got off the same stop. haha. felt damn weird walking behind him cos, i suddenly realised that he was walking to my block! lolx. not bad, got eye candy staying here.
not bad la, at least im quite normal, will occasionally drool at some eye candy. at least that proves to me im still a normal girl. so many things happening, i find it so hard to convince myself that im made to be a girl sometimes...

oh well. frmph. slogged pw at kimmy s house yesterday, not bad quite fruitful, esp compared to last time at her house when i had such a bad migrane that i took two panadol pills and all i could do was lie down and put my head under the cardboard boxes in her study room to block off the irritating sunlight streaming in. frmph.

i just believe that you will come back to me
(next line in korean)

ops. some nice song in korean. shinhwa still. anyway, unbelievable but its actually a slow love song... haha but it has some light hip hop and beats in the background and really nice music...

starting to get used to the feeling of being alone in class, not really fitting into any social clique... i guess i ll get used to it soon. maybe it would help if i had a portable cd player by my side...
haha. i guess loneliness is something not so bad...and i dun need peoples pity, being dere wif me just cos feeling sorry for me like fan was the other day. when i got home, i felt kinda pissed and indignant. i dont need anyones pity, im strong. i ll make it thru, even if im alone.

why do i say guys are yummy? feels kind of weird la, i dun even mean it dat way... haiz. how come i see very handsome guys also wu dong yu zhong. haha im straight i suppose, i dun go fer gals. but how come i just dun feel like others girls do about guys...feels weird. :S
maybe im neutral. thats kinda co0l.

ying xiu got me to help her pay 22 bucks cos she culdnt come school today...after paying my share of 22 bucks, arriving at a grand total of 44 bucks i realise i am broke. what a sad thought. frmph
felt kind of weird not going down to eat today, like missed the canteen or sth.
feeling pissed. no edible food in the fridge, except for some bloody oily mooncakes which my mom will nag me at for eating and some so called fruit cake which is not suitable for human consumption. crap. damn la, did i tell you i nearly got food poisoning this morning just from the smell of it? it sucks. big time. i wonder how that crap bakery downstairs survives. frmph.

i swear that if i make it to stay in hostel and manage to get a fridge of my own, i ll stock it with all sorts of wonderful food and stuff and make sure theres always sth for me to munch on rain or shine
did i tell you i like to binge when im sad? yeah same thing when im happy. when means, most of the time im just eating. crap la. i can forget about my figure, im not as image conscious as some girls in my class, saying what,'aiyoh so fat must go on diet!'
crap. forget the mermaid ambition. wait....who said dun haf fat mermaids argh. i can be one.

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA.
that was a rather disgusting/revolting tot.

i simply cannot take it that my boyfriend is thinner than me. shit. den next time you ll see me married to some hug pot bellied man. damn. hahahahahha a funny tot.

didnt get to eat anything wholesome. crap, some yakurt and what ice cream cone which wasnt even filling. damn.

im in a crappy mood. forgive me if i have offended you or wat, im like dat when im in a slightly bad mood. but im particularily good at making fun of myself when im in a bad mood. its the acid dripping from my mouth la. my sis says im such a cynic. best.

i swear that i did not do it on purpose when my whole head collapsed onto the desk in front of me during econs tutorial today. i swear. it just suddenly felt droopy and my neck couldnt bear the weight and neither could my eyelids, so i just sort of slept or what. sorry mr goh. damn. haha. goh soon hoe is damn good,i feel so bad to be like dat during his lesson

i think i really need a long break from school.
the school
the homework
the class
the teachers
the stress
the crap

oh well. i can dream on.