if u re reading this right now...then u should at least give face and go tag my tag board....

anyway pple been telling me they havent seen me in ages
and its like i missed two or three practices...

i wonder if pple will remember me and miss me if im gone...

quite a sad thought...

anyway feeling really emotionally drained and mentally drained after coming back from the pre u sem...
having to wake up at the wee hours and sleep really late...
having to eat five meals a day
having to remember to naggg them and remind them to bring stuff
having to account for their numbers and making sure no one is missing
having to make sure they re all okay and no one is not feeling well...

im seriously getting paranoid

at one point of time i nearly couldnt take them
cos they just lacking a togetherness which i see lacking in some other social circles of mine...
they just cant agree
they just want things their way

but
they pulled through together
and im really proud of them

and my group had really a lot of pretty girls...
and i was like staring at them...so pretty!>.<
hahaaaa but anyway i seriously think being too pretty is trouble...which is what happened...wont dwell on the details...

anyway
i really miss them now
shit
so much
so much

i miss marks lame jokes
i miss cheryls smile and faraway look
i miss ashtons pretty girl smile and mother goose
lolx
i miss rj s blank face
i miss marcus teasing me SLO
i miss vj calling me a chauvnist
i miss alex talking cock
i miss donna s interesting facts
i miss calling wacky WHACKY and listening to her reply, YESH?
i miss michelle s hug
i miss hui hongs paradox
i miss jia mins smile
i miss raji coming in late
i miss ranvir poking fun at me
i miss weifen s warm gaze
i miss zou haos long talks
i miss rachels hyper and energy
i miss jeremy insisting to help me do stuff

>.<
i miss you guys, 27...so much it hurts...
anyway we WILL keep in touch

after checking out i made a mad rush to take a cab home and chuck my luggage at home and rush to take bus back to school
for choir
and i was pretty early
the velasco guys was exactly the same as last time i saw him at the workshop in cedar choir...still so jolly and humourous and zai...

haiz
oh yeah groupings for octets came out liaozzz
same group as ash and ck and eugene
gonna be tough...
esp wif ash and ck around...
esp ck, sure tekan me one, so zaI... im not...esp when theres ash there, i will pale so much in comparision...
anyway should get ready to be tekanned

dinner was xian
cos i was really stony and sleepy and sad
missing 27 ...

going home was okay lah..didnt want to take bus wif 156 pple cos they were all laughing and joking and havinf fun but i had no mood
so i took 157
then like really bad bad choice
maybe as bad as i take 156
anyway i stoned the whole trip...i hope i didnt seem antisocial, but ck wasnt talking also, and i didnt manage to conjure energy to talk...so i left the silence the way it was

sometimes i get reallt tired of talking to ppple
starting conversations

so i rather there be silence

haiz xianz xia...want to go party this weekend
but also dunno wat to do and where to go...
and probably noone is free...so i ll just stone at home...

anyway let me tell you abt the pre u sem
they fed us 5 meals a day
lolx guys definitely no need to worry

xianz...maybe will update aGAIN later, so stay up if u want to read...


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