Hahaz
Blogging again xia...:D
Yeah!...feeling kinda sheepish cos I swallowed the lozenges pill that im supposed to suck…darn it!

Anyway was feeling good to come back to school and see so many people!
Felt real good
Haiz today went to support thr table tennis...our class got picked to pon lesson and go support...hahz cos we're too enthu and united!:Dyeah~ 04S13~~~
Hahaz anyway really didn't feel lyke going…like hen bug an yuan de reach dere…~>-<~
But when I got there, wow...
Lyke when the match started I was like MAD
Hahaa lyke cheering and shouting and stuff...( NJ JIA YOUUUUU~~!!!!)
:P please dun scold me lah...pai she I noe I shouldn't haf shouted...cantab is lyke 2 days away ...hahaz but couldn't help myself...really got like gan2 ran3 by the qi4 fen4 dere...
Was so proud when we trashed HC 3-0 for some singles match...
But had to leave half way cus of choir...but seriously on the whole taxi ride back my heart was there at the toa payoh stadium...

Reminds me of last year when got sars...the national track and filed champs were lyke 1 week b4 syf lah...but I still went...and I was lyke totally MAD! Cheering and shouting lyke XIAO lyke some madwoman...but lucky my voice recovers pretty fast...was ok by 2 days later..:P tee hee sometimes I find I take my voice for granted lah...

But lyke last week suddenly reaslised its importance when my throat fa1 yan2...
Was horrible not being able to sing or talk...as some famous person said( I tink? :P)
A singer's most important tool is his voice...so I should cherish it!

After all I've got such a special voice! :P tee hee haha lyke I can sing sop alto tenor...only base cannot...argghhhh so sad...orh! But I could sing base yesterday! Serious! But that was cos I sick lah...:P hahaz.my voice is special cos god gave it to me and me only! Lyke so weird cos my whole family only my voice is lyke, erm, weirdly lowww.:D I'm special! And that's why I can cheer so loud xia! :D low frequency sound travels further! :P tee hee hahaz miss the good old days when cheering was a part of everyday life...after all I came from cedar, the famed cheering school!

Recall the times when me and my sports rep led the class in cheering...now in nj, the spirit is lyke, haiz. Really hope the new student leadership body can make a difference co sim willing to be enthu and a a if they need more pple to lead in cheers...not I want to say but seriously they lack support from the student body...lyke the cheering also damn lousy...remember my school they senior senior batch was lyke super good...and I always admired them...I soon became as loud lah...( can tell rite, I’m so LOUD :D) but come nj lyke soften down liao.

Got choir today...
I tink I seriously look like sai inside the black thing the j one guys call a 'sack'...hahaz but hu cares...



They were giving out flowers today...joan got a green one...she didn't want it so I got a nice blue one and changed wif her...really didn't want the green one initially but...lyke I paused to tink...

Looking at the flower made me feel sad for it...I just dunno y...
Its lyke really so ordinary...ugly even, when compared to the other flowers in the bag...
And if joan didn't want it, I was pretty sure no one would want it either, unless as a last resort.
Felt sad.
So I decided to take it...cos it's just lyke me! :P tee hee...hahaz before I had frens and stuff who accepted me the way I was...ordinary looking...maybe even hideous compared to all those pretty colours in the bag...but I'm still me and nothing can change that! :D
Qian jing was suaning me about the pooor green flower...and I was lyke, BLEAH
Hahas I know its not intentional lah...and I was joking also...but its really sad to tink that people are like that in life..pick the nice ones and chuck the not so nice( equals ugly?) ones away...

By now you must be lyke, scary man, this girl thinks deep into everything...hahas...yeah...I'm liddat...all the small things make a big difference! :D

During year one songs felt really sad...cos we really suck...
I really wish we could blend together...like the year twos…maybe it takes time, but my brain is telling me this is just some lousy excuse...we should be able to make it...
Well maybe cos lyke for the sops we suck cos theres a lot of individuality...like they way mae yue sings...its really nice, but sometimes I tink, we're singing together so we should sound like one, right? That's why I keep trying to blend in...like wat I did last time...in cedar...im no longer part of one voice cedar...now is one voice, nj! :P
Hahaz...will miss jayanthi and priya...wonder how they are now...and how shocked they be when I tell them I'm still in choir...cos I vowed to not join choir again...after 4 hiong years...:P

Hahaz.haiz.used 3 packects of tissue today...maybe should start carrying the box...much more fang bian... haha at least I improved...yesterday I used half a box and like 3 packets...:P warhaha

After choir today walked out by the side gate.was behind teddy who was like a very huge light bulb behind cheryljunkai ...hahaz...as we walked past the house room into the sheltered walkway, I caught sight of the basketball court and the field and track.
It was lyke raining real heavily and the rain made loud sounds as it crashed against the floor...as I looked out I saw the sky was lyke covered by a thin curtain if very fine rain drops...I suddenly felt the impulse to run out in the filed and get myself wet…the rain was welcoming me ...and it was almost embracing me...sometimes I feel like I belong to a long rain that never ends...you know what I mean? ...Probably not...haha anyway that's wat I felt...

But I didn't.Quite expected LAH...
Lucky I'm sane, or else I could have gotten all of my stuff wet...but maybe I should have gone out in the rain...washed myself clean of all that ahd happened lately...it'll wash off all my burdens and tiredness...and I'd feel so good...or else would have some people screaming, madwoman on the loose ! or sth...hahaz

Well got to the bus stop...
And saw ck there..and ben...
I ve always found ben khan weird...for some reason I cant quite explain why...cos like I say hi and he doesn't lyke tao me or anything but he doesn't not tao me either...hahaz I'm making less and less sense...okk
Anyway he was listening to mp3 player I tink...sooo jealous! I want mika...:P
Hahaz...hafen listened to jay fer very long time...
Today heard ck rambutan cy and sida's rendition of shi jie mo ri for the second time...
Was pretty good except I really dun like the fast part...

Mun yee was next to me and the whole time she was tinking about pitching and whether in tune or not...but I was like, I really tink the colour and expressions are important...wads most important are the feelings and the expressions right? Cos you sing because you lyke to sing , in the first place,...not cos you're forced to...ink after so many years of rigid training and rigorous singing, performing has become like, auto pilot singing for many people...totally forgotten what its like to enjoy while you sing...lyke if you dun enjoy, the audience wun either...

Ahhh side tracked again...gonna be a very long entry..:P PAI SEH~ haha fer all you guys hu had the patience to read till here...you're good loh ! :D

Haha...oh where was I ...eh...oh and I saw ck...he was like by himself...and I said hi and he smiled back...I guess he's also one of the types of people who dun open up so easily...haha...but he's really nice...:D...( opps...darn it! Forgot ck might be reading this...eh...ermm...arghh...haha, eh...haha.:P ) I remember the starting of the year had a little trouble knowing him..cos mich and me called him'that fella'...forgot why..cos of choir auditions I tink...yeah..sth liddat...and obviously no one likes to be called that fella right? Haha...( sorry ck! :P pai seh lah…) but seriously couldn't remember his name so 'that fella' was a great way out...:P hahaha...and how come he always take cab huh? ...so much money...hahaha...:D I shall refer to him as 'the one hu takes cab'...haha...hope he's not reading this...( not very possible...haha ) anyway that was a joke! Haha. OK...not funny...

Oh yeah...and how come rambutan was so off colour today?....( rambutan: if you're reading this, then CHEERUP K?~ dun be sad lah..seeing a normally happy person sad is a very sad thing...diao im talking cock again...:P) must be the stress and stuff...jia you anyway kz...2 day more...im feeling abit off colour myself...

Well where was I? eh, den went home wif the 156 gang...and y pple keep mistaking huh...there is nothing special between me and teddy bear..its like diao...I'm not attached and very unlikey to become attached! ..what the heck loh...it is a crime to be frens?...isn't cheryljunkai more like erm...definite?...hahaz....

Seriously I dun tink jc is the time for all this bgr stuff...too complicated...
And I dun tink im old enuf for all this...I'm too childish sometimes...im only 16...
And guys at this age...eh...not I want to say ah, but how many of them are serious?serious enough to hang on and be wif their girl till ...well...till they grow up and marry?...what the heck loh...I rather not risk the heartbreak...

Ahhh not again...I sidetracked like for the 5th time? Haha
4pages liao...
I can crapp more...but really shouldn't right?...getting late...
But I wanna write a little more...
Like reading other people's blog is really co0l...ike I ve gotten to know them better...even though in actual fact I may not have lah...but I still like...cos its like to me a blog is where I can write all my stuff...cos I dun really believe in covering myself up...I rather let everyone know wat im like...:D LOUD and ROWDY...:P yeah...( oh yeah and please, PLEASE you can call me anything but dun, DUN EVER use the word bubbly on me...it sucks...YUCK! )

Hahaz...mika again..i just found out that listening to mika's singing in the dark and increase the marginal utility of the song...:P haha...tried that out...

When life is down its ok cos you know there'll be times when you're up and going cos it's all a part of life.

I'm writing nonsense again...
Love blogging!:D
Love ya'all !!!


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Wenlin :D ( ps did I mention its now 11 and I spent 1 ½ hours writing this nonsense? I'm mad...totally mad...:P)