milo truck again!

some miraculous stroke of good luck =)
and it came when =( was just about to start creeping onto my face...

im perpetually thankful to be alive =D

its like a happiness booster when im feeling demoralised.
the small insignificant things that mean nothing get me down,
but i ll go to a corner and say very softly to myself,
wenlin, jia you, go go go!

it works without fail everytime... almost anyway.

i like to think that im the one cheering people up all the time, since im perpetually annoyingly sunny cheerful [quoting what he said, 'sunshine and grass girl'... now come to think of it, im not sure how long ago it was that we talked properly; we dont even talk much now anymore; the last time he talked to me it was a kind of exclaimed surprise cause he just found out i joined kendo... kind of a twist of fate huh. considering the first contact i had with the concept 'kendo' was because i got to know him...']

but i suddenly realised im hopelessly dependent on other people.
for their smiles, their words of encouragement, their assurance...
truly, if i were alone on an island the only way id survive would be by sustaining the thought and hope of other people coming to talk to me...

i dont know why i always end up quarrelling with.... but well sometimes its just that way;
i guess some conversations just dont follow the normal trajectories...


but maybe its not quarelling.
at least to me it doesnt feel like.
but what .... maybe the other person doesnt think like that...

quite annoying cause everytime i see shannon say hello on msn, then i want to reply, i realise he sent it while i was away and by the time i come back hes offline already -___- heh.

suddenly felt like listening to quando quando quando again today when mr godspeed asked me who was the person singing 'home'. and i remembered that wife says thats her favourite song from his second album. i dont have a personal favourite, but generally most of his songs are rather good. but nobody can beat nat king cole. *beams* its like ken hirai versus toshinobu kubokata. its like 'hitomi wo to jite' vs. 'lalala love song'

of course its la la la love song! without a second thought, without a single thread of doubt!
'unforgettable' by nat king cole is truly wonderful =3
im looking for 'the shadow of your smile' but john steven's version... cant find his version
oh my god im listening to 'i wish you love' by nat now...
haha, his voice is incredibly sexy...
suddenly im reduced to this weak, starry-eyed, hopelessly romantic silly swooning girl...

my breaking heart and i agree
you and i could never be
in my best, my very best, i set you free
i wish you shelter in the storm
a cosy fire to keep you warm
but most of all when snow flakes fall
i wish you
love


*huddles up and curls into a ball with a satisfied smile spread across face*

had a good talk with hong jin last night while we painted the stuff.
we were talking about the times when we were young, and i realised we have quite a lot in common... art and stuff.
sets feels a been depressing lately; the general feel/mood of the place...
wayne doesnt talk much anymore; hap yuin seems more cheerful than before,
joshua, a lot more stressed but happy, though rather peculiar...
hadrian, his usual hippo self, shaun his normal good-boy self...
weiqi, busy with dance class...

suddenly i feel like drawing again.
i always knew i had unsettled issues, but i made a pact with myself [after getting to know judy, she told me i should always draw something, at least one thing a day] to draw something each day, but i havent been keeping to it much... but the troubles and insecurities and unknowns just keep accumulating; they dont mean much, but they just lie there; their existence cannot be ignored....

this is a re-re post [i ve posted this twice already, HAH. talk about being lazy. im doing good to the environment; recycle ok!]



















im feeling like walking through the rain with my beautiful umbrella again