one sad thing today:

the phrase: 'last year, last chance' kept flashing in my head non stop today.
i know i ve only been at this for 1 sem, but time will pass quickly, and i dont want to turn around and realise and regret when its last year last chance for me...

no more regrets.

one random thing today:

i snubbed my toe while running up the stairs thinking i was late for practice carrying my bogu and shinai today. the toe felt ok but while i was waiting at the bus stop i realised it was bleeding. i think i need to give my nerves a break; they seem to be malfunctioning. at the rate im getting injured, i might need to admit myself in a cushion prison [you know for those hazard-to-yourself mental patients] soon.

must be more careful.

its hard to keep smiling when everyone has =( face around...
i try to keep it there but it keeps falling off...
need to buy a smile...


i always think that if others are sad, i should stay happy or become happy so i can try to cheer people up, because i get happy when others are happy. i guess thats being selfish, cause its like im living off other people's happiness; like some parasite

but there can be no totally selfless person,
right?