im in a exceptionally go0d mo0d today so shall name this post:

>>>~EVeRy cLoUd hAs a SiLver LiNInG~

realised life isnt really quite as sh*tty as i tot...
today choir was ok...morning went to eat wif some of the 156 pple...they actually really quite nice....haiz and about clicking, i juz i shant worry...juz let nature take its course...so :P...hahaz...welll

mich told me last min that you zhi called her to ask us go out ...i was sorta pissed like cos he never tell me b4 hand...like thrown in surprise and stuff...den last min again he say dun wan cos he tink cannot go out liao...so...hahaa...i was really pissed cos i really tot he was pissed wif me...and the thought really pissed me...haha k im goin around in circles...well its like really depressing...den i was like fine.as you wish. den i tink you zhi was worried that i was angry cos i nvr tok liddat and i sounded pissed...den a few sms and stuff and you zhi was like: i din call mich! hu said i did?...anyway dat wasnt main point...he wasnt pissed wif me...juz really wanted me to go there k box yesterday...so...i was like...oh.okok....:P...anyways i aint upset anymore cos got free lunch meal @ qiu hans house....qiu han mom rox!:D...hahaha...den like ...suddenly i realised...u noe, life really isnt as bad as you tink it is...all bad stuff will come 2 an end...and go0d stuff will be in due course...:D hahaha...

read abt ah heng s reply on msn grp...sorta quite touched @ his sincerity and class spirit...you rock heng :D...go raffles! :D..hahahaz...well hui hui will be sad....you zhi too...me also...a wee little bit lah cos no more annoying a**hole...:P..hahahahz...:Dgood luck ah heng!...

so life's ok.



@ least for now lah.

hahaz....so lemme continue where i left off last time....:D

my good frens
>>part [two]*

>>ruxia
hahahaz....well rui xia is this really nice and frenly looking girl whos gota mugger face...quite sadly, she really isnt a muggger...did i tell you tht she s got this mad obession over STARZ?anyting 2 do wif STARS...she s really obssessed about it...well....wad can i say?>...i ll get her sth nice and STARY for her b day...hwahahaha:D

>>kim

kim is this reallt totally cute korean baby from n korea...hahahazkk enuf of lame jokes...last time we used to be classmates in pri school...but din really noe her well and din really bother to make frens wif her cos her best fren used to be jia hui....which i dun really like....hahaha:P but now its like heaven gave me a second chance ...and im sure glad i GraBbed it!:D...kim is the cutest fren i ve ever had!:D...thru all the stuff ive grown to know her better and she is one amazing gal, i must tell you! :D

>>bready
hahaha:D did i mention dat on the first day of orientation i danced wif brady?...actually there was no couple part so i din literally dance wif him...juz parnter only...and did i mention hes really stoney?>..he gave me a lame...which has a striking resemblance to him...and thus i ming4 ming2 it stoney...:D haz bradys becom converted dese days...its really a wee bit creepy xia...like he ll start laughing like a girl?....errrr ....hahahahahahz
well he says jokes wif a st face so its like super lame cos of his face...but brady has been harbouring a secret dream of going to ri...now he can go rj, hes so mad and happy dat he went to memorise the scholl song liao...kao!

>>kairu

hwahwhahahah....gai ru!!! :D...well i remember the first day i came 2 class , real late and everyone already intro myself liao....den only me weiming PLUE and ah heng haben yet...so i was real nervous but i guess i musta looked super tao...but dere she was...that wavy haired frenly rv girl, smiling so nicely @ me tht i couldnt help smiling back at her....:D...yeah~...and kairu like has a super good temper ...neber seen her upset oor angry before xia...
did i also mention that she thinks that mayb she should rebond her hair?...i beg to differ...her hair is gorgeous the way it is...and really cute!:D

>>cheryl
hahaz...well cheryl was the real first fren i made was i remember she was the rv girl sitting right next to me...:D...she was real nice and frenly...and on day one when i tot i lost my uniform she offered to go help me look for it...kairu also!:D..rv girls rock FAnnnnNY~:D..kk thts beside the point...we both share horrible memories of dancing tht stupid moon dance for athens...haha..will always remember the practising and hard work...and those guys who goof around...kao!:D....anyways cheryl is one good example of a non stereotype... u noe y?...cus i tot i'd dislike all girls named cheryl in the world...but for this cheryl,...i make a real big exception...:D

>>yunru
shes this really nice scgs gal hu laffs @ virtually ALL of my lame jokes...
hahahahahahahz...and shes real mature and nice...shes one year older den me, born in the year of the tiger...and we both love MANGO:D...yay~so does you zhi but dats beside the point...mango pudding rox rite> gal...
hahahaha

hahaha
decided to write more about 04s13
my class
in national junior college

>>>first part *one*

my go0d frens[part one]*

*youzhi rella*
this really tall guy...face turns red easily
really likes to play bball but good at posing only...nber succeed at shooting one...haz...Kk
i intially din even noe hu the heck he was...den i found out dat he was ng yu zhi cos he me and yichao played this game of mafia and we WON!but i died so dat they could win....sacrifice...zhuangliexisheng...anyway he is one really nice guy so all you girls out dere if you re interested can go get him...hes stil unattached...and also hes the first and best guy fren i ve ever made....
ps did i also mention dat he oscillated the pendulumn in this pjys experiment when we re supposed 2 oscillate a triangular card and hes bitterly teased and tortured ever since?...:D
anyway it was really nice of him to stone wif me at the rj mac cos i din wan 2 go in but everyone else did...so we stoned dere and ate stuff and played battleshipgame...
>>member of ulu mac_crew
>>member of v day_crew

*Michelley*
hahahaz...wad can i say?:D no words can express the joy i felt when michelley walked in2 my life....it was like first day and like i was real nervpusbut i probably lo0ked darn tao ...but dere mich was, @ the other side of the row, smiling at me....so darn enthu about choir and stuff..and boy ish she a nice girl....she rox...she s so enthua nd cheerful nothin can stop her...michelley! you rox..ps guys!shes also single....:D
member of v day_crew

*Ah Heng*
wad can i say?some stupied ogl brought me to sit in the wrong clan on day one and i cheered for delphi...ah heng did the same...dem me eugene weiming and PLUE stoned around while some helpful ogl brought us to our class...well if you re looking for someone hu looks more tao den me, den *BING!* you ve got it...ah heng is wat you need..
hes tall but shorter den you zhi( hello anyone is shorterden you zhi...tht 182 cm giant..)and has this astro turf like thingy for hair...and also a super duper buay song face and mafia face and a strong rafflesian spirit and super duper huge alter ego dat as well as a great sense of humour and really good imitation of mr ducro and horas(pronounced as "har-rashhhhhhhh")
he also likes to ask you zhi to go 2 the toilet wif him when he wants toshit...
did i mention he is my chem benchmate and dance partner(we both got sabohed to go onstage to dance...SoRry HuIhUi~!:p)
hahah..anyway he is also xxyyzz wif huihui.....:D

>>member of v day_crew
>>member of ulu mac_crew

*huihui*
she s this reallly sweet and nice looking girl...intially i got to noe her thru michelley...den like the first few days of orientation i kept asking her wad cca she wanted 2 join cos i was really nervous and i forgot her name and i was frantically trying to cover up ..i like asked her mayb 5 times a day?...and always she d smile and say she wanted to join tennis....well...did i mention that she laughs at almost any lame joke that i say?....okok not every joke....mostly lah....mmm this big mac im eating is real nice...oh anyway...huh...wad else harh?...huihui has this real strong love for her old cca, MITS , which is some comp and tech stuff which i am clueless about...but her micromouse looks cool...
>>member of ulu mac_crew

*yeFaN*
this really cheena and chio looking retty girl...i tot she was real not very frenly @ first cos she always hung out wif ning ru only...but later i found out that she really beri funa dn frenly....FANNNNNNNnnnnnnn~~~~:D
watashi daisuki fanfan desu...please forgive me for my broken jap...:D
she s a fellow jap musik fan but she s more rock...we both like winds...
shes reall tall and comes from dance club...
intially i culdnt remember her name till she told me 2 remember a fan chuan boat made from leaves Ye zi....den i never 4 got after dat...

woah....wrote sho much....tired liao

next
preview
>>>first part *two*

my go0d frens[part two]*
includes:

>>ruxia
>>kim
>>bready
>>kairu
>>cheryl
>>yunru

...
TO BE CONTINUED...

Hahaz...yohyohz
Juz came back from choir...feeling tired...
And stickty and smelly and disgusting...but HYPER~!:P
Hahaz
Cos juz now on the bus 156 talked with serene...shes really nice...haz...
Den lyke we played zhong zhi mi maand I sat next to Thomas cos he say I tao and not with them so I went to sit at the last row wif Stanley and Eugene and Thomas...
And the first time mich lost and she had to go up and tell a guy she and Thomas knew, that: you hav a cute butt, can I have your number?... haha sho farni...then the guy said you have a cute butt too...hahaha
Then afta dat I lost...darn it...I should hav pick the other number then can jia si thomas...but anyway I wanted dare but there was too much dare so they wanted truth...but Stanley was lyke, wad to ask?....no scandals...hahahaha and I was grining...feeling extremely pleased with myself...then Thomas came up wif a cock question...if you had a chance to go out wif either three of the guys, which one would you pick?....then I was lyke…none can?....and he was lyke NO MUS pick one...and I smiled and said anyone but Thomas...haha and he got offended and started threatening me physically...trying put his fist next to my face...hahaha...then he lyke forced me to pick from his fingers...and I chose the twisted finger...it turned out to be Stanley...and Thomas was lyke, wow, Stanley, you are the Ideal partner...and we were lyke luffing so hard...

Today during choir had a great time...damn hyper...starting...stood between sze jia and xu chen and we were lyke luffing sho hard...haha xu chen very funny and cute... :)
I really lyke the sop seniors...they are so frenly!!! :D
Hahaz

hahahaz...haiz...
today was real sh*tty...woke up at nine thirty cos mom forced to....really din feel like xia...den has this cake like stuff for breakfast...

then went wif family to national central library to see it for the last time b4 its being torn down...quite sad actually cos it has many memories of me and my frens there ....darell, weiling and me....though not very fond memories lah....doin cip to get more cca points and stuff...
shelf reading and selving books...cutting paper was the easiest job...though kinda boring lah....anyway...really like tht place....despite all the hard labour i has to go thru dere..haz...

and then we walked around and then shortly took mrt to novena...

i was like, thank god we din go to orchard...ditto but i really dun like tht place...really dun like squeezing wif pple...and the pple r so cold and unfrenly...hahah ditto, juz dun like the place...its ok if i go wif frens...i feel more protected...dun like being alone...feel very vulnerable...

haiz...yeah i guess its good i like tao and fierce and everyting cos im really vulnerable inside all that....:P...lucky me....

than we went 2 united square....and we ate stuff there...so many pple at the food court..but the food ok lah...:D...yea...
den there was like this lego fair....i was like, LEGO!~
did i tell you it was my fav toy when i was small?>....barbie din really appeal that much to me...plus my dad juz wun buy me barbie dolls...for a record i tink he bought me one in my whole lifetime....yea.really!ONE...hahaha..but lego rox anyway....den i was trying to spell out 04S13 wif the lego but my mom wun tolerate my nonsense and told me to walk faster or else cannot catch up wif dad....haz :p well...hu cares....:D

haiz class outing tomorrow....dunno wat we ll be doin leh....:D

hope we have fun....:D

This is in memory of VaLenTiNeZz dAy 2o04


part[one]
>>>mOrNinG oF V dAy Eve :D

watermelon and mango:D

hahaahz ...that stupid watermelon that i brought home musta @ least weighed a ton or two...okok lah....maybe @ least three or four kg?...yep...it was so darn heavy i nearly died while carrying it home...and all huihui carried was that stupid multi coloured mango which costs more ex than the stupid water melon...well, anyways, it was pretty worthwhile...cos in the morn when i rushed out 4 choir, huihui said she successful passed the watermelon to eugene...and she said ah heng looked like he wanted to kill her....hahaha ...hated bewilderment and shock @ at once...he musta been holding his chest cos he culdnt take the shock....

in memory of v day

Part [two]

hahahaz...well for the rest of the day, eugene had this shocked/upset/happy/blissful/angry/bewildered look on his mafia face...and when i asked him where the beloved watermelon was, he asked in a gruff cum buay song voice, i left it wif jeremy in the string orch room...and he kept complaining cos he din wan to carry the darn thing home...but i was like: I carried this HOME you idiot! complain wat!...go eat sh*t!...and he toned down...well you zhi seemed pretty shocked and happy yet disappointed wif his mango...i gave him a clue that his present was multi coloured...which was tru wad...:P harz its tru wad...its got 3 colours...and two nice blended colur parts...anyway, his mago was more ex than yhe darn stupid watermelon loh!
hahaha so for the rest of frid v day ex everytime i looked at eugene he gave me this : WAD YOU WANNNNNNNnnnnnnnnnnn look and practically GLARED at me...funny y he din do that to huihui...she also had a part in this wad...haha mayb cos they xxyyzz?....hahaha
then after sko0l he was carrying the watermelon to the canteen and he was like:I DUN WANT TO CARRY THIS STUPID THING HOME...and so you zhi was like ...how about borrow knife from stall uncle and cut it?....den someone said sure cannot finish..but dats wad happened anyway...and the water melon is darn sweet xia!go0d choice huihui!:D yeah... and we finished up to the very last slice...hui hui took the slice wif her name on the skin cos we wrote happy v day from ming hui wenlin...hahaha ...mine wad spilt up so i took the wen part ...:D

kk very late liao and stinky and smelly and haben bathe yet, so gotta go

TO BE CONTINUED>>>

The...errr?....where did I left off huh?
Well ant kept pointing and complimenting all those younger than me who could ride a 2 whe...its was lyke he virtually repeated the process for every single kid who rode by the train we were taking...it was darn HUMILIATING!....:X
Haiz...but thanx 2 his jokes they kept my mind away....so I felt numb most of the time...or else im sure I would have juz sat in one corner and cried to myself...or sth liddat...:P

Haiz....then when we went back brad heng yz mich huihui atc finished kayak liao....den lyke we really din noe wad ta do... but got news tht kai ru reaching so we waited for her …she brought FOOD for us to eat!!!!!~~~ kairu kairu the best the best! Kairu the best!~ so we ate happily...then fan wanted to go walk walk and remembered tht youzhi said wan go seven eleven so we went 2 look for him...but turns out he left wif brady and heng liao...and we din noe wat 2 do gain, so we took train again to the monorail station and we saw yz ,heng and bread @ the delifrance there eating....yichao and ant bought garlic bread and I bought a long loaf ....then tore it to eat slowly along the ride...

Fanny was so sad and worried during the ride cos she borrowed michs slipper and it s broke...but it looked so darn flimsy...it was gonna break sonner or later wad...so...anyway fan was getting paranoid and was madly searching for glue to stick the slipper back 2geder...fan really was feeling so guilty and bad....and I was trying to cheer her up but to no avail....:'c...Im real lousy @ such things...anyway...

We went back and mich etc said they were waiting fer us so we culd haf a united game of beach v ball...and we did lah...yawnz...
Its was really fun...weiming said he din noe how to play but boy did he make a lot of saves!...and you zhi and heng super pro @ the game ...yichao and ant also ...fanny also very go0d @ serving...throw @ 45 degrees ah...max displacemt...kk very lame...anyway I was on hengs team and its was really funny cos like if I din remember wrongly yichao or ant whacked a ball @ us and to save the ball virtually everyone of us from hengs team whacked the ball once to prevent it from touching the sand!!!!>>>>:D hahaz real farni...
And michelley kept catching the ball...sho farni xia...:D
And did I say we saw ling yis class?...or rui juns class @ the monorail and the beach also...ling yi wore bikini...I am speechless...well shall not make a comment since none of my business anyway, ...:P hahahaz...
Den lyke halfway thru the game yicvhao and ant started burying mich’s legs in the sand...we even took a photo...hahahaz:D sho farni!
Den it was like super late when we stopped ...seven liao...felt sho sad cos noe tht we so dily daly sure cannot go mich house one...got curfew...so made the best outta wat ever time was left...haiz.

Then we went harbourfront hawker centre to eat...really yummy the chao guo tiao...or @ least the way weiming and the girls ate it lahs...but I din eat cos not hungry...juz shared ice kacang wif fanny...so nice of fanny to sit wif me ...cos all the girls tookd up one table...leave only one seat left...if fan sat there I would hafta sit alone...but fan din..she sat wif me @ another table...

Really touched...probably seems weird to anyone else , but to me , it was very touching cos this showed how much fan valued me as a fren...she ‘d rather give up sitting wif the other girls so I wouldn’t sit alone...FANNY!:D YOU ROCK!~ den fan fan was telling me that heng ate chicken rice AND kway tiao...and I was lyke , he must be really hungry xia...:D..hahahaz. we finished eating quite fast so we were sitting around playing wif the ice and stuff...wei ming joined our table cos the guys table was full and fan said he was looking longingly at the guys table all the while...hahaz mean while kim came and joined us...her presence really warmed me up...:D and fan was trying to make some weird stuff wif wad was left of her duck noodles and chili and ice kacang and ice...and me fan and kim all tried it...tasted...THAT ONE hahahaha:P...and weiming winced as he looked @ us try ot out...then fan trivked you zhi into trying it and attempted to do the same for yichao and ant but alas! FAILED...hahahahaha...

Den fan was balancing some hollow ice wif the straw and cup and she and kim were betting which ice would drop off first...and KIM WON! And thus the sudden outburst of YAY~ and yea~ Cos fan’s ice cube got stuck @ the side...haha...or else sure drop first one....and fan attempted to put all the empty mugs infront of weiming to make it look lyke he drank it all...weiming looked so ...wu nai ...hahahaha :D
Den fan and kim shot ice at yichao and ant...ant was upset tht kim shot multiple ice...sho he warned kim and fan to shoot wadever they culd in 3 sec ...cos afta dat its would be revenge time...and ant even graciously let them pick between kway tiao and chim chow...hahahaha..and lyke, fan and kim xiam all the way to the side...while me and weiming stoned at our seats...sho funny! :D

Then fan and weiming kept debating on who to keep the 80 cents cos we wanted 2 treat weiming to the cup of sugar cane juice but he was lyke, no no no...no neeed...and fan chased weiming all the way around the hawker centre to try to stuff the money in his pocket...but to no avail...hahaha...then fan chsed him around the interchange also but also din succeed...she passed the money to ant to do it...I wonder whether got succeed or not...:P hahahaz

Den it was really getting late...so I decided to be guai gia and not go mich house...or else sure go back my mom nag dad give cld shoulder and tao me...so...haiz...lucky got direct bus from interchange...93...den me and fanparted @ interchange..she wan take 188...but later she told me she take mrt wif yichao etc...safer...and I took 93 home.
Felt real luck cos it like takes FOREVER for 93 to come...but lyke I din even wait for 3 min and the bus come liao...:D yay~!...

On the bus trip home, felt this overwhelming rush of sadness overcome me...suddenly felt like crying...lucky no one dere...except pple on the bus lah...but I still din cry...but my heart cried...haiz...then took out the darn stupid jacket tht took up so much space in my bag, to use on the bus...quite cold…wonder if the rest went mich house...

Dunno y felt depressed cos I orways exected my 1st 3 months to end wif a BANG...but why did I end wif a clap?....i really dunno...but I should count my blessings...so I am contented...anyway the bus only took like 45 min or less...I tot would take 1 hour or more...so felt kinda silly about the time I spent goin to harbourfront in the morning...but last chance liao...so I guess ok lah...should not have regrets or sth...

And that marks the end of my last outing wif 04S13, officially.

In my spell

Calling out your name gives me a special feeling
As if it is a secret between you and me
For no reason at all I think of your face
And your familiar smile in the crowd
Today’s sorrow
Yesterday’s insecurity
All pass as the train breezes past the station

Hugging you gives me strong feelings of paradox
Mixed emotions that I can’t express
Promises and the love I’ve been dreaming of
All this and that I’ve ever known

I can hold you in my spell
Keep you for my very own
My magic will last till the very end

Knowing that you are out in the rain
I wait for you to return, feeling all alone
Thinking of you meeting another
Gives me a sad and insecure feeling

I lost sleep the night you were out late
Imagined you peacefully in your sleep
Tomorrow will come
I should not live in yesterday
You will tell me when the time comes

Thinking of the past brings all the heartbreak
Fearing to lose all that I once had and dearly cherished
All this and that I’ve ever known

I’ll be searching you everywhere
Even if one day you were to leave me
Cross my fingers and wish the day never comes

Sometimes
You leave me hurt and torn
Feeling lost I dwell in sadness
Still
I can’t forget you
Everywhere I look I see you

Hugging you gives me strong feelings of paradox
Mixed emotions that I can’t express
Promises and the love I’ve been dreaming of
All this and that I’ve ever known

I can hold you in my spell
Keep you for my very own
My magic will last till the very end
So that I can
Keep you for my very own


Wenlin

March 2004