Crazy thoughts

Something I would really, really like is some nice together time for the 2 of us in a nice place away from the craziness and mundane everyday of Singapore, but I know this is not the time you can do (if it's possible at all, at anytime, for you)

So, I wait....






Wish i could book a ticket for next (or even next next month) and just go!
like that!

wedding photos

For some weird reason beyond me my boyfriend wants to take our wedding photos in firemen suits/outfits.Though that is very far from my ideal, my ideal doesn't really fit that of an extravagant all-out Bali or Santorini wedding either.

Something budget, but quirky is really what I'm thinking of.



Hmmm.

not that we are getting married anytime soon, that is.

Looking forward

Immensely inspired by airbnb, let's build our dream home together, my love! :)

Looking forward to it.

Who wears the pants

Why ah?
Sometimes I don't know what exactly I'm unhappy about.
I guess it's just the general loss of freedom?

I always thought that after 21, you're an adult now, that you get to make decisions in life that really matter to you, and it becomes that you decide and tell others, reassure them, convince them of your choice, instead of asking for 'permission' all the time...



It just feels so...sad.
I guess some things never change how old you are.

As bad as this sounds, I'm just grateful I never personally have to find myself in that situation.
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I miss your face, your voice, your smell...



But sometimes it feels so distant to me, so distant from me...

Is this normal?
If not, then what is? and how can things become normal again?

Questions

What happens when you feel emotionally detached? As if a stranger, as if in third-person view?
How long does this last? How do you make this go away?
Should you try to make this go away?

beauty

It all starts here, now, I think.

Preoccupation with it.

2013

Hullo, 2013!

You came like the wind and i hadn't had the chance... to write my resolutions yet.



What about you?
what new year resolutions have you got?

Happy Christmas, Merry New year.

I hope everyone stays healthy, positive, and happy.

Hello, you :)

Most of the part I'm just really thankful I found you. 

(failing) Expectations

No one is making unreasonable requests, or expecting too much of me, but,
Secretly sometimes I wished I needed to answer to nobody-

It's tough trying to satisfy people all the time-

being a filial and thoughtful daughter, 

being a worthy and prudent daughter-in-law to-be;

I don't deny sometimes I wish I were nobody to anyone-

There I wouldn't need to feel bad about letting any single party/person down at any time.

We've only got 24 hours a day and 1 of me to go around,

and it's tough keeping everyone happy, you know?

2012- retrospective

Nowadays people ask me how i'm doing- with my work, with my family, my friends, my boyfriend etc,

it's hard to say because somehow if last year (2011) was a year of opportunity, 2012, this year, was a year of adapting to the position of having accepted the opportunity and getting used to them. Of course there were more challenges and also rewards/recognition, especially in terms of work this year, and in some aspect, milestones achieved, but i would say this year is the real year of change.

With work there have been some times in which i questioned myself and asked if the changes/opportunities were worth it, if the past had been better and if looking forward, this is the right way to proceed on. But as with all things in life, my belief is that nothing comes easy and if you want to excel/succeed, you need to work to earn it.

Relationship-wise i would have to say this year was year in which we were 'waiting for the dust to settle'.
Not having been a real relationship ever before, it was the first time for both of us and things weren't easy. But past the first year, looking back now, it feels that we're much more comfortable with each other and also ourselves and for myself, who i want to become.

And i guess if i had to sum up my relationship with my boyfriend in 3 words, i would say

I am (very) happy.

Ops, that was four. but you get the point ;)




How was 2012 for you? Barely a month's left...

一起去跑步。

坦白说，有时我有感觉，人生好像是个漫长的马拉松。
对懒的我而言，有时感觉很苦难很艰苦。
特别是踏上了‘成人’的道路，更是觉得要均衡分配时间给家庭，工作，朋友，爱人是无比苦难的事情-
有时甚至有时为了一样，而忽略遗忘了其他。
所谓的‘work-life balance'到底又是如何才能达成争取？

可是人生要是不艰难，那跑到了结尾时，也就没有那种有成就，满足的快感，不是吗？？
所以即使艰难，觉得还是要更加更加努力，才能跑得更加快，更加轻松。


而虽然我不是个擅长表达自己内心感觉的人，
好多时候我真的很感激，
很快乐很幸福，


因为有你陪我跑着段漫长的路。